May 2, 2023

Stagnant, yet on the cusp of change,

Extraordinary or collapse in range,

When to surrender, I can’t gauge,

Life’s uncertainties, I can’t rearrange.

Dad’s in the hospital, I feel alone,

Unemployed, fiance far from home,

Laptop broken, new city to roam,

Too much free time, yet no time to own.

TV’s on all day, radio all night,

Drowning thoughts, to avoid the fright,

Lethal thinking, in hindsight,

Haunted by doubts, out of sight.

Helpless as Dad battles disease,

On the sidelines, my worries freeze,

Wedding plans, seem to displease,

Life in between, I need to appease.

I try to cling to hope and light,

To find a way through the endless night,

But sometimes it feels like an endless fight,

In the in-between, where wrong feels right.

So I resign myself to this limbo land,

With no clear path or guiding hand,

In the in-between, I try to understand,

That sometimes life doesn’t go as planned.